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Sunday, October 23, 2005
  prelude part three - the final prelude (one night before)

"Baby, it's not what you think." Jackass said knowing full well it was exactly what she thought.

One hour earlier Devi exited her bedroom door in full gear. Twenty-three, one year out of college and still floating through life in an alcoholic haze. Which is not to say she had a problem, she didn't; insofar as the drink was not controlling her life. Unlike most others with this claim, she actually could stop drinking at any time. But life was fun, and so far, cheap enough.

Her room, leased on a monthly basis (though no actual lease officially signed) was adaqute, if not a bit small, though the quality of the housemates more than made up for it. And the price was a steal. Only two hundred and fifty dollars a month, the check made out to Melody. Melody lived in the largest room - the master bedroom - but neither Devi, nor her fellow housemate begrudged Melody that, after all, it was Melody's house.

The rave was already underway. Her small shiny silver purse filled with glowsticks, multicolored sparkle, and a few tabs of extasy that Jackass gave her for that night specifically. The plan was to pick up Jackass (she felt a little embaressed that she now reffered to her boyfreind using the same moniker given to him by her housemates) at his place then drive over to meet her housemates at the rave in Alston. Parking was going to be a bitch, but she figured it'd be worth it to get have a good time with the people she enjoyed.


Key in hand, Devi opened the door to Jackass's apartment only to find Jackass on the couch snorting a line of coke off what could only be the augmented naked breast of the bimbo slut sitting next to him.

"Baby, it's not what you think." Jackass said knowing full well it was exactly what she thought.

All smiles Devi backed out, closed the door behind her, walked back down to the car ignoring Jackass as he tried to follow and explain, and drove to the Rave alone.
Friday, October 14, 2005
  Prelude part 2 (three months before)

"You son of a bitch!" Melody almost yelled and slapped Sam across his face. This definitely wasn't how the night was supposed to go.

An hour earlier Sam picked Melody up at her house in honor of their six month anniversary. Melody spent most of the day getting ready. Both of her house mates (she owned, they payed her rent, which in turn went directly to the bank to pay off the mortgage) were out for the day at work, or where ever (Melody was never sure what exactly Devi did during the day, but she never really worked up the courage to ask). Though she did want their advice, the solitude gave her time to think, put things straight, and she resolved she would come clean tonight.

Wracked with nervous tension, Melody didn't want to ruin anything. Sam Warwick was the best thing that ever happened to her. He was the sweetest most caring man, and he loved her, at least she was pretty sure he loved her. If the sex was a litmus test of love there was no room for doubt. Unfortunately she knew that great sex doesn't always have anything to do with love and for this reason - amongst some others - she was scared he'd leave her after she told him. That being said, she knew she no didn't have a choice. Whether or not he loved her, she loved him and it was important for him to know so their relationship could have a future.

At 28 this was the longest relationship she had been in since high school, but any relationship before she turned 22 didn't count - at least not as far as she was concerned.

There were too many choices to make, and she hated choices. Black dress, or red dress, flats or heels, hair up or down (she had to do it herself as her hairdresser was on vacation) and the real questions: how much cleavage should she present. This in her mind was the pivotal question, this tore right to the root of the matter. Sexy was important, and she was proud of her breasts (they cost a pretty penny to be as perfectly sculpted as they were) but too much might well turn into a negative instead of a positive. She really wanted to talk to Rufus but she knew it wouldn't be possible.

The dinner itself was divine. She really couldn't ask for much more. The food, the company, the conversation, it was all everything she could have asked for.
By the time dessert was served she knew she couldn't delay much longer. But before she could start she found her words coming out of Sam's mouth.

"Melody, there's something I need to tell you. It's not something I'm proud of, but before we can really move on with our relationship, and I want to move on with our relationship, there's something I need to tell you." Sam said.

"Me too." Melody said lamely feeling a bit like a horrid mimic instead of a real person.

"I haven't been entirely honest with you, and you deserve honesty. So I'm just going to come out and say it.... I'm married."

Melody put her cup down. This was not at all the sort of news she expected. She didn't know what she expected but this wasn't it.

"You're married?"
"Yes, and I have a 12 year old daughter."
"You're married?"
"Yes, but I love you, and I'll leave my wife in an instant if you say you love me too."
"You son of a bitch!" Melody almost yelled and slapped Sam across his face.

Fuming couldn't even begin to describe how she was feeling. Married? Married, this son of a bitch was married? What the fuck was he doing with me? I'm the other woman? I can't believe I'm the other woman? How did I not know he was married? This is the smallest fucking town in all of fucking New England. Everybody knows everybody, and I didn't know he was married? But he said he loves me. He really loves me. You can't help who you love. And I do love him. Even though.... I do, I know I do. Maybe it can work. Maybe this will make everything easier. Yeah. Maybe...

"I'm sorry." Melody said. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean... I'm sorry." Now much more calm and aware of all the eyes of the other restaurant patrons now focused on their table.

"Do you love me?"
"Yes. You're a son of a bitch but I love you." And Sam smiled the biggest happiest smile Melody had ever seen in her entire life.
"You love me? Marry me. Marry me and we'll run away together. Who cares where. You and me."
"As long as we're coming clean, there's something I need to tell you."
"If that's a yes, you can tell me anything."
"Yes, I'll marry you." Melody said smiling.

Sam jumped up onto his chair and yelled out, "She said yes, we're getting married. Champagne for everyone!" And the restaurant lit up in cheer.
As the champagne was poured into long flutes, Melody pulled together all of her courage. "Sam?"

"Yes?" He said brimming over with joy.
"When I was twenty-two I had gender reassignment surgery, then a year of other plastic surgery to complete everything."

A pause as his forehead wrinkled in confusion.

"I don't understand."
"When I was twenty-two I had a sex change operation. I used to physically be a man."

Sam still didn't register the information. As if there was some mental block that wouldn't allow him to take it in. "I was born a man."

"But... but we've had sex."
"Great sex."
"You're a man?"
"Never, I just was born with a man's body."
"But we've had sex..." He said almost pleading.

And without any further explanation or discussion, before he could even wash back the crisp clean champagne he ordered, Sam blanched, vomited, then promptly passed out.

Go to prelude part three here
Friday, October 07, 2005
  prelude, part one (six months before)

"This is a really stupid idea." Rufus said as he looked over the ledge of the building and down five stories to the snow covered pavement below.

Fifteen minutes earlier Rufus snuck out onto the roof of this, the tallest and most secluded building he could find. His intentions were simple: to walk to the edge and throw himself over. A simple solution to a non existent problem. To his dismay, said intentions were thwarted (at least temporarily) by a thin older gentleman sitting on the ledge eating a banana.

One of the benefits of this particular building, to Rufus (and apparently to the thin older gentleman) was the fact that in addition to its seclusion, it was abandoned and empty.

"Nice night." The thin older gentleman said once he heard Rufus step out onto the roof.
"What are you doing here?" Rufus asked.
"Same as you, just enjoying the view. It's such a beautiful night and up here it's easier to take it all in." Which was a remarkably inaccurate statement. Not only was it freezing (literally - at 20 degrees Fahrenheit) but ominously overcast as well; clouds completely obscuring any possible moon light and star light. No one came to this part of town, and the building itself was barely within the town lines. From this vantage point the rest of the town was mostly imperceptible. The only view was that of the sparse woods and the highway off in the distance.

"I'm Clarence." The thin older gentleman said and stuck out his hand amicably.
"Rufus." Rufus said as he took the thin older gentleman's hand.
"Pleased to meet you. Take a seat." The thin older gentleman said and patted the concrete ledge with one hand while dropping the empty banana peel on the roof with his other. So Rufus, though he desired otherwise, sat down on the ledge of the building next to the thin older gentleman named Clarence.

And after a moments pause Clarence stood up.
"Well, it was nice meeting you Rufus."
"You're leaving?"
"Been here for quite sometime, and I can tell when another man desires solitude. I should probably get home anyway, the missus is expecting me and I really shouldn't keep her waiting."
"You're welcome to stay." Rufus found himself saying, suddenly scared to be alone.
"Naah, I really ought to get going. Mind your balance. It's not a long drop, but it's long enough if you catch my drift." Then Clarence turned walked down the stairs into the building leaving Rufus all alone.

After watching Clarence disappear into the woods Rufus stood up. He took a deep breath and looked down the five stories to the snow covered asphalt below. A stream of thoughts rushed through his head. I'm only 28, what the fuck am I doing? I've never been to Tokyo, I've never been to Rome, hell, I've only been to Manhattan once. I've only been with three women; do I really want to die with only three women under my belt? Damn, I'm such a fucking tool. What's wrong with me? Why can't I go anything right? I can't even kill myself properly. Is that why I'm doing this? Did I feed my cat before I left? I hope not, he's getting a bit too fat. But that's probably Melody's fault. And what is Melody going to do without me? Who's going to make the ice cream?

"This is a really stupid idea." And having dissuaded himself from the plunge he took a step back from the ledge. "Wow, I can't believe I almost did that." Rufus continued to no one in particular and turned around.

Relieved, Rufus took his first step forward towards the rest of his life. Unfortunately his journey was cut short as he slipped on the banana peel Clarence left behind and tumbled backwards over the ledge dropping five stories towards the snow covered pavement.

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